Monday, August 16, 2010

Emily Dickinson: an epileptic

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From Emily Dickinson's Poems by Thomas H. Johnson

I measure every Grief I meet
with narrow, probing, Eyes-
I wonder if It weighs like Mine-
Or has Easier size.

I wonder if They bore it long-
Or did it just begin-
I could not tell the Date of Mine-
It feels so old a pain-

I wonder it if hurts to live-
And if They have to try-
And whether- could They choose between-
It would not be- to die-

I note that Some- gone patient long-
At length, renew their smile-
An imitation of a Light
That has so little Oil-

I wonder if when Years have piled-
Some Thousands- on the Harm-
That hurt them early- such a lapse
Could give them any Balm-

Or would they go on aching still
Through Centuries of Nerve-
Enlightened to a larger Pain-
In Contrast with the Love-

The Grieved- are many- I am told-
There is the various Cause-
Death - is but one- and comes but once -
And only nails the eyes -

There's Grief of Want- and Grief of Cold-
A sort they call "Despair"-
There's Banishment from native Eyes-
In sight of Native Air-

And though I may not guess the kind-
Correctly- yet to me
A piercing Comfort it affords
in passing Calvary-

To note the fashions- of the Cross-
And how they're mostly worn-
Still fascinated to presume
That Some--are like My Own--

end

I feel for her as I feel my pains when It attacks.
I would have loved to meet Emily...an epileptic maybe, but definitely, a poet.















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