I desire

I desire to be nice
I desire to do good
I desire to be kind
yet, I desire to be rude.

I desire to live happy
I desire to gab
I desire to be groovy
yet, I desire to be rad.

I desire to live how I want
I desire to see it to be
I desire to grow old
yet, I desire not to flee.

I ache that I desire all these
that may or may not come true
for only time and love will bring bliss
to this life I try to fizz.